A cherry lit in the darkness
The smoke exhaled from my mouth
It floats into the air in a large gray cloud
Then dissipates into nothingness.
I can’t help wishing I could go with it,
To float away and dissipate into the abyss.
To be free from the problems that bog down my mind, my body, my soul
Nothingness seems comforting compared to the life I live.
When the world comes crashing down around you,
Everything seems so a mess,
Everything you worked for was a big mistake.
You hate the air you breathe, how it fills your lungs and brings you life,
Simply because it’s seems like you don’t want to live.
You’ve lost your will to wake up in the morning, to get out of bed.
All you want to do is die, never wake up, sleep forever.
The cigarettes don’t have taste anymore,
No will to intake food
Life forces drift away
Because the spirit inside you drifted away long ago.
Wishing you could follow it, wishing you could die.
That’s life to you now.
That’s everything.
I put to the cigarette out,
And walk back inside to wallow in misery
Bask in self pity and watch life go on.

Gypsy14
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http://www.wordsiwrite.com

You're digging deep.

Life means this to YOU? Is that a real moment? Is it a fleeting moment or is it life...ongoing...is it every ciggarette you smoke?

Wow... feelings.